WASTING TIME
I’m losing my ambition, like a worn out salesman Trying to strike up a deal with the devil.
Oh I never wondered where it all came from, but maybe now I should leave it on the table.
I feel like I’m wasting my time. Oh, I feel like I’m wasting my time.
I could use some sort of signal, I could use a sign.
But I feel like I’m wasting my time
I used to have a mission I could pull from. Trying to make you feel good, but now I’m feeling numb
I don’t understand why I can’t believe it’s gone And Tennessee didn’t really help at all.
Where is the darkness, Where is the light? I’ll take either one just to feel alive
It’s about time that I could use a cure. Maybe I misunderstood what I was put here for.
I feel like I’m wasting my time. Oh, I feel like I’m wasting my time.
I could use some sort of signal, I could use a sign.
But I feel like I’m wasting my time
I feel like I’m wasting, I feel like I’m wasting my time
I feel like I’m wasting, I feel like I’m wasting your time
I moved to Memphis last year, and wrote this song about 9-10 months after I got here. I think I assumed that moving to a new location would fill me up with great amounts of inspiration, but after months and months, and only a couple unfinished songs (I mean, like, hardly even started songs, like half of a verse or something) I had nothing to show for it.
I don’t even know why I wrote this one. I was just messing around on a piano, and that first line “I’m losing my ambition like a worn out salesman” just came to me. That line seemed to really match what I had been feeling for so long. It’s tough to try and get by slinging t-shirts from town to town. Rarely do I want to give up, but I often question why I’m doing this.
I find it impossibly hard to be honest about my emotions and feelings in real life, but for some reasons I can say more in songs; I can be more honest in lyrics. I think it’s because in a song, even though it’s my words and my melodies, there’s still a “character” involved. I don’t know, maybe I feel like that person is a bit separate from me, even in my most personal songs.